Some of it I already told you: journals are supposed to be for absolute candor. I can’t have absolute candor if I am sharing the pages on my blog. What is public vs. private? Apparently, lots. And some of you might think that I’m pretty open on my blog, and that there’s really not a lot that I would want or need to keep private, and I applaud your close reading. That’s what I thought, too.
But the truth is, old habits die hard, and journaling can’t be a productive exercise for me if I do not feel as though I am 100% uncensored, safe, and private.
These are two separate habits of mind, two separate objectives.
Things I’ve learned that led me to the decision to end the journal blog early, to blog here, and journal not here:
- It is easier for me to start stories in a journal than sitting at the keyboard. Once they have begun, typing them over into Word and continuing is easier. But writing to a prompt in a blank office document? Not my cuppa.
- I process information very, very differently via type and handwriting. I do not think so much in my journal. I spew. When at the keyboard, I have a list, and strategies to stay organized and focused.
- I do not need these with the old school handwriting practice, and in fact, when I was trying to apply my blogging thinking space at my journal, I was very frustrated and edgy. It was obnoxious to have to try to write for myself and for everyone else at the same time.
- I forgot how obsessed I am with penmanship.
- Both kinds of writing practice are incredibly important for me, and are useful in separate compartments of my mind and my conscious thinking, though they help each other without any of my own intention. It’s like they’re holding a conference call in my mind of which I am blissfully unaware. It’s easy to ignore how much writing development occurs at the subconscious level.
So here are the last of the pages, and thank [insert deity/deities of your choice here] tomorrow I can start sharing this stockpile of excellent blog posts I’ve been stewing. It’s going to be a good blog week here at April Line Writing. Stay tuned.
And oh yeah! There is no 2.11.12, I didn’t journal that day.
The second entry 2.12.12 here, that’s the freewrite response to the Tin House writing prompt. Here’s the winner from last week’s prompt (it was about shoes). I’m’a clean it up and put it in a word document. Might not even be recognizable when I email it to the pepole tomorrow. But there it is, and enjoy.
Four (or more) last things: Here are some links I would’ve put in the entry from 2.10.12: